Summer, Spring, and Fall and thoughts about them all

So, I returned tonight after a long day of fellowship and fun with my friends from my Sunday school class, some of whom I have not seen in what seems like a year. It may have not been quite that long, but it certainly feels that way. I decided to go to MC, initially just wanting to get away from my family, somewhere distant. But whilst being at college, a Christian one even; I grew to know more families than only my biological one. One of Spiritual Fellowship with friends from MC, those from First Baptist Clinton, and those from my home Church Hunter Street Baptist in Hoover. Along with a changing yet vibrant relationship with my parents. I see changes in myself nut I don't quite know where they are leading or what I may be doing even 2 years or even five years (don't ask me where I see myself in the future; I don't know). But what I do know is that God is in control of things that are happening to me and within me; seen and unseen. I was united today at the annual Church picnic with old friends and some who I have just began to become acquainted. The rain whose forecast was immediately ignored came fast and hard, but somehow the fellowship was just as good as if we had had perfectly dry and sunny weather. But it was cut a little shorter than I would have liked. I went to a picnic and didn't eat any food, except for the couple pieces of watermelon. It was very good :) We then went over to a friends house and had pizza, ice cream (thanks Clay!), and watched a movie or two. One of the most enjoyable and relaxing times I have had in recent memory. I hope to have many more in the near future. Maybe with less rain, though. Back onto the topic of school, I frequently miss the friends from home who I so rarely see. But at the same time I am just as excited to see my friends from School at MC. Maybe I do get a little home sick at times, but life goes on, doesnt it? Also, this past semester was a bit of a roller coaster. I was successful in achieving a B in Java (I am so proud of that!). Some of my other grades were not as good as I would have liked. But, in hindsight I guess I have no one to blame but my self. Consistency in spite of demands in several areas, all which require the same amount of intense fervor; proves very challenging. However, I know that man cannot live by his own strength, because he will fail everytime. But I forget that so easily and go back to trying to rely on myself. And I think that is what happened. I became so nervous about making the right grade in Java that the others began to slip. Now, lest you get the idea that I failed everything else; I didn't. But I did not receive the grades that I should have. I earned them par for my effort but my enthusiasm and commitment for the material should have been more. But it wouldn't have been of me or from me.