So, Its Been a While

So I have not posted here in a while. I must confess that frequently I get so wrapped up in Campus life and things that I must engage in on a daily basis that I forget that I even have a blog. I've gotten back into the word which I sadly neglected most of christmas break and the beginning of this semester following Ryen's inspiration in a Leadership Team meeting. I have many things that I want and maybe need to get out here in the open and its hard to decide which is most important or even applicable. So I think that the best way to characterize my current feelings and mental state at the moment is through song. On repeat on my speakers is Switchfoot's "Love, Life, and Why" from their 1997 release Ode to Chin. Lyrics Following:

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Could it be this
Could this be bliss
Could it be all that
I ever had missed
Could it be true
Can life be new
And can I be used
Can I be used

Give me a reason
For life and for death
A reason for drowning
While I hold my breath
Something to laugh at
A reason to cry
With everyone hopeless
And hoping for something
To hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

Could it be true
Can life be new
Could it be all that I am
Is in You
Could it be this
Could it be bliss
Can it be You
Can it be You

This song so accurately describes the way I've been feeling lately, much better than my feeble words alone could have done. I've frequently felt alone, even when in a crowd of people. I have been praying to be covered in the awesome, comforting blanket of Christs bosom, warmer than the softest fleece. He is mighty, even through my struggles, depression and all. I am daily reminded of the sovereignty of God, he will provide for all of my needs whether they be fellowship, encouragement, just a kind word, or even teaching through adversity. I don't know where I heard the following quote it might be biblical or maybe not. But here goes (rough summary as I dont remember it verbatim): You can go through life and have no trials, but then what would you learn about God? If we had not troubles or cares we would not need to appeal to someone higher than ourselves. We would ourselves be a sort of God satisfying our own desires since we need nothing else. I've written a lot, maybe this would have been better written as two separate posts.

In Christ,

Weems