Fall

Well, I must say that I am tired of the nonexistence of sunshine and the constant rain. Rain and the Cold temperatures combine to make me shiver uncontrollably at times. Sometimes its so cold that I wonder if someone walking by could mistake me for someone having a seizure. Sometimes people say that you shouldn't care what people think about you and to formulate your own ideas about things but sometimes I just cannot help it. Another thing that this time of year does to me is make me more sad than normal. Its the middle of the semester and professors are really turning up the burners and combined with the cold weather it makes for not a very pleasant time of year. Many times when I am sitting in a class that I don't care much for I fantasize about reading a nice long book by a large roaring fireplace for a very long time. I guess I just want to get away from everything for a while. At this point in my life last year as a high school senior I thought that if I just made it out and into the Collegiate world then everything would be great. It was a great idea, but I think in the end that was a fantasy. Don't get me wrong I love College and MC. The people are great and for the most part I love my instructors too. But some of my pre-conceived notions about college were just unfounded and not based upon any shred of reality. College isn't this place where everything is happy all the time and you don't have any worries. It is fun, but it isn't all about fun. I guess that fantasy came from the Human longing for a place where you can get away from all the stress, work, and everyday mundaneness of life and the routines that go along with it. Life isn't happy all the time and it wasn't designed to be that way. I honestly believe that without the wonderful foundation I have here at MC with the great friends, Christ-like role models all around, and the prayers of my fellow Christians on campus and back home I would not have been as successful as I am. There are still daily struggles--and its a journey--one day at a time.